Last Thursday someone mentioned we might have a snow storm headed our way. I felt myself getting excited about the prediction. Over the weekend, I found myself looking at several weather channels to fully understand what was about to happen. The weather reports are not always accurate, so I like to hear several weather reporters to see if they are all seeing the same thing. They were! And now by Sunday evening reports were not about a few inches of snow, now we were talking of some real accumulations! As a matter of fact they bantered around the term “Nor E-easter”!!
I immediately googled nor easter to get a good look at what I hoped was coming…something that every child wishes for when she hears this kind of weather warning, a SNOW DAY!! My heart was pumping . Talk of the impending nor easterner took front stage on the news channels, even my Amazon Echo concurred! No one was talking about some dumb Trump tweet, or the latest Hollywood divorce–it was all about this huge snowstorm.
Yes! Finally it was here, a day where I could hang out in my pjs all day long and drink hot chocolate, and read and maybe watch a movie on Netflix. And then the absurdity of it all struck me: I am retired. I can hang out in my pjs and drink hot chocolate, or read, or watch a movie any day at all, regardless of the weather.
The fact that I was so revved up about just hanging out sent a very clear message to me. I am always doing…fun things, good things, obligatory things, nice things, social things but I rarely, almost never “just hang out” with me. While I have made many changes in my life, I have yet to learn to enjoy being with just me, in pjs, with a good book. I read all the time, sometimes all night long, but always with the purpose of learning something I didn’t already know. But rarely do I just read a book to just delve into the imaginary world of the characters and the setting and just become part of the scene the author has created for me.
Women with high SUCCESSTROGEN are better than me at relaxing, at “not doing” and at reflecting by themselves. As a matter of fact, it is one way they refresh and re-energize themselves. They know when they need to and they do not wait for a snow day to do so. It is time for me to work on still another needed change in my life, to enjoy spending some quiet time with just me.
Care to join me? I do not mean together of course as that would not reflect any change for me! I meant, care to join me and enjoy your own alone time?